God looks at the heart…

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I was watching a video this morning of a young man’s eulogy who recently committed suicide. He was a youth minister and very involved in his church and community. One of the men who spoke at the funeral was talking about how great this young man was and how he reached out to others in so many ways.  While he was talking I was listening to some of the things that stuck out to me on a personal level. He said the young man was also a convicted felon and that even on Halloween for the church fall festival he dressed up like a “jailbird.” He kind of magnified on that briefly and it made me think. Maybe this young man was trying to make a statement by doing that. Maybe he was just having fun or maybe to a point it was an unintentional cry for help…maybe a cry for help for him…or a cry for help for those who aren’t even given a chance because they are judged by others. Once someone has a felon charge it sticks with them like glue throughout life. I also am a felon because of some poor choices I made over 20 years ago, but every time I apply for a job that question on the application haunts and reminds me every time. Have you ever been convicted of a felony? I have to say yes to that. It’s hard! Even though I KNOW I have changed and don’t do those things anymore that record marks me. People are so quick to judge external things and appearances especially in the church. We judge people by the way they look, what they wear, their body piercings or tatoos, their habits, their past, their “status or lack of” their money or lack of, etc.. Like that felon charge that sticks to me like glue we stick our opinions of people to them. Even if we can’t see the big picture. We aren’t supposed to be like that! Who are we to judge anyone? If God doesn’t look at those external things then who are we to do that?

This young man also struggled with depression and his death was caused by suicide. Some people don’t think depression is real and those people of course are the ones that don’t have to live with it, but it IS REAL. Suicide is like any other temptation…we are ALL human and experience moments of weakness where we give in. That’s just how it is whether we want to admit it or not. If we didn’t make mistakes we wouldn’t grow. This man had a moment of weakness and I am sure he had many moments of weakness since he struggled with depression because I have. Depression has you in a place where you do have to fight for your life at times. I have gotten to a place many times where I felt like I could not go on any longer so I can relate to him. He just couldn’t deal with the burden anymore….I think in life we place too many expectations on people to be a certain way. That is hard for anyone but when a person’s brain is sick those expectations can keep you in a state of defeat…you may function outwardly but your brain is in a constant battle. It is a hard place to be. Anyway, my point is we should try to see the heart of a person not what they do or don’t do or the illnesses they live with…There is a Bible verse that I read this morning that ties into my thoughts. It is 1 Samuel 16:7 “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”

We are all in the same boat…we are ALL capable of things we think we wouldn’t do or end up in places we didn’t think we would. We have to be careful to see people with our hearts so we can help them and not hurt them. It is hard because the natural thing do is to see the outward first, but everyone has their reasons, pain, and own story they are working out. This blog is not really an advocacy for Mental Illness, but an advocacy for people in general. This song is such a beautiful song with such a powerful meaning behind it. It shows we have to accept people where they are with their baggage and everything…not where we think they should be. It’s called DOES ANYBODY HEAR HER? The YouTube video is awesome, too!

She is running
A hundred miles an hour
In the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyons ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She’s another two years older and she’s three more steps behind
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she’s going down today?
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in,
To ride in and save the day
And then walks in her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
A momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she’s going down today?
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Who can’t see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her
If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Who can’t see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her
Never even met her
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she’s going down today?
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she’s going down today?
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
He is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction…
BY: CASTING CROWNS
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5 thoughts on “God looks at the heart…

    1. It was very hard trust me! My mom was dealing with her own pain and issues. I have forgiven her. I guess when you have kids of your own you realize no parent is perfect. She did do some pretty shitty stuff to me even more than that, but I believe it has made me who I am today. That was a horrifying night but God had His Hand on me and He used that situation to bring her to her knees later on. I don’t have a relationship with her now either by her choosing. I pray for her and love her from a distance. I have a family that loves me unconditionally anyway and it’s her loss because I’m pretty awesome 😎 Thank you for reading and I am reading your stuff too! I can relate to a lot and find that we have a lot in common.

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